“When love hurts; a woman’s guide to understanding abuse in relationships” is a book by Jill Cory & Karen McAndless-Davis. Really informative, it opened my eyes to all the different types of abuse I endured from my ex. It helps me forgive myself a little, and explains a bit as to why my mindset was so completely off kilter.
I have compiled the list to iron out what I need to work through, everyone is different of course. There are other types of abuse like when religion or children/pets are involve. At least I was the only one suffering and that’s some comfort in a strange way.
Cultural Abuse: using his culture as an excuse for the abuse, putting down my culture and my way of thinking, forcing me to act as a Japanese girl, blames language barriers for his death threats, blames my culture for my “horrible” behaviour
Emotional Abuse: blaming me for everything, using guilt, silent treatment, withholding affection, being jealous, threatening
Intellectual Abuse: manipulation, mind games, making me prove things to him, testing me, always demanding perfection/more
Financial Abuse: counting everything I spend/scrutinizing receipts, demanding I pay 50% to the last yen- regardless of circumstances or if it’s an item that I’m not taking back to my home country, always gets angry about money, controlling where I spend my money,
Property Abuse; destroys all my stuff in a jealous rage, kicked/punched holes in cupboards, throwing things, punched and broke magazine-stand at train station
Psychological Abuse: threatening suicide, aggressive and threatening gestures, threatening to kill me, denying things he said, making light of the abuse and threats he made claiming he was “joking”
Verbal Abuse: swearing, name calling and endless insults, always yelling
Sexual Abuse: threatened to have an affair and then sex with prostitutes, looking at porn and call girl websites in front of me, he raped me and then tried to say I owed it to him.