“Silence is a form of victimhood”
I don’t want to be a silent victim anymore. What happened to me was not right in anyway. Regardless of “drunken mistakes”, I did not deserved to be robbed and then raped as punishment.
I once felt almost untouchable in Japan. Maybe a bit cocky and blinded by the pure joy of being in Japan and how many awesome opportunities I had chasing my dream. I was so happy on cloud nine… until I met my ex.
He beat down my soul, with his angry words and his homicidal death threats; my normal intuition was clouded in fear and I drowned myself in alcohol to hide.. I clawed for the swindlers love to save me, and I was completely taken as the perfect mark. The perfect victim.
And so I’m coming forward quietly this once, it’s the best compromise to myself. I won’t be a victim in silence. But I won’t continue to ramble about such serious issues to my fans on my mysticwater account (at least not yet- I’m not ready to be an advocate quite yet).
So if you care to follow my healing process on Glass Triggers you are more than welcome to support me here. On the flip side, I won’t be offended if it’s too uncomfortable to address as it is a trigger heavy blog and not the happiest of topics- feel free to go about your lives and I’ll focus on mine.
I don’t want to suffer in silence anymore. I’ve already started reaching out to select friends, but it’s time I be honest with my fans and online friends too, because you have all kept me going forward in years passed.
I am aware of the very real possibility of backlash, and I know I cant go back, but this is what I need to do to move forward.
I want I stop violence against women, and this is my first step. One day I will be louder and stronger. One day I’ll be free.
Until then, wait for me.