Homework; What is your strength?

“What are your strong points? The good points that are inside you?”

Her accented tasks motivate in a strange way. This women believes me. This women thinks I am a kind and strong person. My boyfriend thinks I’m brave and funny.

Who do I think, I am?

-I love and care deeply.
-I’m trusting, and follow my heart despite the consequences.
-I will give people second chances, even when it’s ill advised.
-I’m empathetic, so I always try to relate, it often makes things worse.
-I like to please others, fear of being hated. I want to make people happy.
-I love my friends, and will always help them no payback needed and no judgment; but I often wonder if the feeling is mutual?
-I’m stubborn. I’m outspoken (both gets me in trouble).
-I used to be independent.
-I’m smart.
-I’ve completely self-taught myself a second language.
-I am creative.
-I am passionate.
-I am affectionate
-I am…

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Homework; Questions

“Even if you cant answer yet, ask yourself the questions anyway…”

Why can’t I move forward? Why do I feel stupid? Why can’t I just let go and understand /he/ is the only one responsible for his actions? Why can’t I feel the emotions for /him/? Why do I instead feel angry at myself for that week? Why did I choose to drink the problems away?

I don’t know.

Why do I soak in self blame and frustration? Why can’t I feel the world the way I used to? Why are my thoughts saturated in negativity? How do I stop?

I don’t know.

How do I break free? When will the nightmares end? When can I feel normal again? I’m stuck. Caught in the never ending loop.

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